Depression in der Corona-Krise: Ein Betroffener erzählt
Maren Schürmann

Das tägliche Ziel in einer depressiven Phase: durchhalten bis zum Abend. Und dann hoffen, dass der Schlaf Erleichterung bringt (Symbolbild).
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Ennepe-Ruhr-Kreis. Ein Mann leidet unter Depressionen. Nach Jahren der Stabilität hat er in der Corona-Krise einen Rückfall erlitten. Ein Blick in sein Tagebuch.
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Schädlich: zu hohe Ansprüche an sich selbst
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Endlich fühlte er sich wieder besser
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Dann kam der Rückfall
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